I'm up....actually by now I should be getting ready and stuff but I'm not. Instead, I'm lurking on egl reading people's comments. Several are saying that they don't see what the big deal is with lolita becoming more popular...but I don't think that's the problem. I think what's at issue here is the fact that lolita is already so misrepresented, that there's a fear it will become even more convoluted. That's usually not a big deal whenever something like that happens (especially in fashion) and it often does. What I think is at issue here is that it represents up badly. We're already on the fringe of what would be considered the "norm" of clothes. We already get stares and points and jack ass comments. We're used to that. We're fine with that. We're getting those responses to something that's ours.

But after lolita fashion becomes more popular, and it become mistaken (if! this happens) for something else entirely and we notice the looks and and snide comments....suddenly it's not "oh they're pointing at me because I'm wearing floofy clothes, but that's okay because it's brand and/or I made this myself and I am proud of it" but "oh no....they think my brand and/or self-made jsk is the same thing as That."

There are some who put so much time and effort into this fashion who don't care (or would even like) if lolita became more "mainstream" and easier to buy. I would love it. What I don't want is for me to go out and buy a $200 dress and get it mistaken for one that cost the wearer maybe $15--and then get laughed at for it.

....and now I'm going to be late to school and unable to find parking...I hate college. At least in high school I had friends to mooch off who could drive and park me right by my class. Ah...but now I appreciate the things I've lost. *fake enlightenment*

I just...I don't know. Today was good up until about 6 or 7....but then a bunch of stuff happened that just ruined the good mood of the day. Now my knee is bothering me in a way it never has before and I'm in pain....I'm angry, I'm pissed off. I just want to scream obscenities at the top of my lungs even though I know it won't help and will probably just work against me--cursing is a very negative activity. It damages your karmic reservoirs or whatever those new-age psychedelics would call it.

I'm going to bed now though....long day tomorrow. I really just don't want to do anything. I want to not wake up...to just stay in my bed all day so that the world won't mess with me. But I know that that is just as negative (if not more so) as the loud cursing.

I think I'm paying for Tuesday. I killed a spider....now I'm being punished for it. I ruined his/her life, now I'm suffering a day's worth of anguish because, well, that's only fair. I felt so bad when it happened too.... :\

Good night my dears....sweet dreams and have a pleasant tomorrow.

"And remember: All students will learn and each student can make a positive difference." (LOL at my old high school--Humble H.S. is for the LOSE) And for all of my AMS Tigers (*death*): "Make it a great day or not--the choice is yours."