Okay, normally Suzy is my favorite to play, and setting her down when we down-sized the cast was hard. I was super thrilled to be back in the Mirrorverse because that meant more Suzy but now. Um. She's getting really fucking annoying. Dave, you are absolutely right when you say she needs to love herself. She's so wrapped up in you that she's lost the spitfire attitude that I most associated with her. Granted, this was sort of inevitable, but that doesn't mean I don't like it. I'm looking forward to returning to the regular-verse so that I can redeem her character for a bit before I have to lay her back down.

Annnnnd. As much as I've regretted laying her to rest in our regular game, it's been really nice to get back to basics with Spock and Gaila, and I'm really happy that I've picked Uhura up and that the character is finally going to get a chance to be fleshed out.

Haha, there's really no point to this entry. I just feel bad because I'm always on Tumblr now. But I love LJ. I just haven't had much to say. I'm slowly making my way through PGSM and now I'm debating what I'm going to wear to Matsuri. I think I'll probably only wear loli on Saturday. I don't think I'll be there on Sunday. For the picnic in two weeks I think I'll make wee little pigs in a blanket again. Those are yummy. I think I'll probably wear Vintage Cherry to the picnic and The Print Formerly Known as Prince to the con. Idk. I can't decide.

...have gone up HERE!

We're a little late having it this year. Hopefully it won't be so hot!



ALSO: Sarah and Kate and MY MOTHER OF ALL PEOPLE have managed to convince me to go to Anime Matsuri. Who all is going to be there?

Okay, so I've been super stressed lately and the sort of sad that borders on hardcore omg-I-need-meds depression. My choir teacher's partner died on Monday, and for some reason it really dredged up memories of my dad, which makes no sense because my father was neither gay, nor did he die of complications from esophageal cancer. But anyways....I'm dealing with it. Not in the best way, but I am dealing with it in a way that isn't going to destroy me.

My mood has been greatly improved by the fact that I've decided what path I am taking next semester. Over the summer and the fall I am going to finish up my requirements so that I can get my Associate of Arts. Then in the spring I will be starting on my web design degree. I'm very excited for this turn of events. I'm just so utterly thrilled that I can't help but want to do a little dance whenever I think about it.
( Summer/Fall Schedule )

I'm still not sure about my work schedule, since I'm not sure where I will be working come fall. Most likely, however, I will probably be staying at Party City for the majority of the summer since they are really good about letting me off when I want/need to have off since they don't want to accidentally piss me off and have me quit (lol...too late for that!). I also would really hate to get hired at a new place, only to have to request off a good portion of the first two months of my employment. Geez, it just seems like no matter how hard I try, I can never get away from P.C. XD Whatevs. I'll hopefully be gone within the next six months.

I'm not going to be doing choir next semester. I love Dr. Faber, but I'm just sick of the fact that we never get anything done in class and are automatically expected to learn our music outside of it. I can work on memorization and rhythm fine on my own, but I can't actually work on the notes since I don't play piano, am not a vocal major, and do not even take private lessons. I mean, if we actually got work done during class, I wouldn't mind it so much, but we aren't. So. Hmmm... we'll see how music will fit into my life come fall. I'd hate to stop altogether, but I dn't know if I can afford private lessons (for my violin) and I can't find any string classes that aren't taking place when I'm in class/on a different campus. I'd also like to find some sort of physical activity to do so that I don't remain in my horribly mushy out-of-shape sort of way of being. I hate that I used to be so strong and flexible, and was still able to keep most of it up after quitting karate, but then lost it all when I died. D: Dying sucks guys! It will steal away all of your muscle tone! Don't do it! I used to be able to do the splits!

Ugh....anyway, I think that's mostly it for now. Easter was fun. Gene came over and made steaks. The con was hella boring, but I was with awesome people so that made up for it. Takuya Angel's people/table/panel/everything was just...too much for words. I didn't even go to this con to see him, but I left feeling that way. Definitely way more worth it than Miyavi. I was rather disappointed in his performance at his concert. The fashion show was really awesome. The lolis were super cute and I loved the Takuya Angel portion.

I'm sleepy now, though, so I'm going to bed. Good night.

Ugh. I'm going to Sarah's tomorrow and I still have no idea what I'm going to wear for Anime Matsuri. I have an aristo outfit that I'll definitely be wearing Friday, but I have no clue what I want to wear Saturday. I won't be there Sunday, since mom wants to do family stuff (she said she didn't care if I stayed at the con, but she did her little baby doe eyes that mean she actually does). I'm probably not going to wear loli since most everything I want to wear needs cleaning.

Ugh....! I just...idk.

I'm really actually peeved that I won't be there Sunday. It's like, I'm wasting all of this money (badge, food, trinkets, NOT working!!!) and I'm not even going to be there the whole time. It's kind of frustrating.

Plus, I don't know what to wear~~~~ (lol I'm such a girl!)

....will be Anime Matsuri.





Anyone else make a decision yet?

I am in such a weird mood right now. o_O I'm watching Men in Black (love love love love love that movie) and just acting like a spaz. I think I'm driving Mom crazy. She's trying to study for her midterms and I'm getting all crazy and whacky. I already scared my cat. XD

I stole a prompt list off of one of the fanfic 100 comms that is lurking online and I'll be using those words as fodder for my writing. I'll be doing a 100 series for music-themed stuff and also one for Dark Mysterious Matrix Girl. :D I'm hoping to be able to come up with some kind of vague plot line for NaNo this year.

Anime Matsuri is this weekend....can't WAIT to see my Sarah-child. I need to post about the meetup. Blech.....I just want to get my butt over there. I really don't want to go through this next week of school for some reason.

Oh, and yeah....guys are dumb. They have cooties. They drool and they are smelly and stuff. I will just marry one of my cats and that will be that.

In unrelated news, Darwin lists his status on facebook as "in a relationship." Ass.

Don't Panic.

It just seems like I needed that. 11,521 and today is the halfway day, meaning I should have 25,000-ish. So I'm out $6 + a tank of gas (what I said I'd buy mom if I didn't get to 15k last night) but I'm surprisingly ok with that. Probably because SOMEONE is giving me $100 to do his homework....? Idk...I asked mom about the morality of the whole thing and she said that I was just doing a job (one that I love, might I add, because it's writing) and it was all on him whether or not he was actually going to turn it in. So, yeah....still really inky-feeling, but she does have a point. I need money, he has money, he's willing to pay me for my talents. The whole thing sucks, but I'm not the one paying people to do my papers for me. I'm the one who needs money. Especially since I'm about to make a Meta order with Sarah. Especially since I want to go to Ren Fest this year. Especially since (though I am still living at home) I pay for my own rent, insurance, gas, and most of my groceries (when he doesn't). Especially since I need that money so I can go to Matsuri next semester.

You see, it goes on and on. Really, all it comes down to is that I'm providing a service that he is paying for (similar to selling a gun I guess...?). It's not on me what he does with that service (hunting, shooting at a range, protection, murder). I have no control over that. I don't like it. But I need money. It's done.

Don't Panic.

I just need to remember that.