I am an idiot. I made fudge for freaking stupid Darwin. TWO POUNDS OF FUDGE. And if that didn't scream PSYCHO-STALKER loud enough, the HAND-MADE LOVE NOTE should. I found some quote online and it said something along the lines of: "We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love." IF THAT DOESN'T SCREAM PSYCHO-STALKER I DON'T KNOW WHAT DOES.

Ugggghhhh......why am I suddenly acting and feeling like I'm 8 instead of 18!?!?

I'll tell you why.

It's that damned Mass-Marketing Valentine's Day. It somehow has the power to turn even the most sensible person into a drooling MORON. I wasn't that sharp to begin with, I'm telling you that.

Oh, and the cherry on top of this mountain-sized DAY OF FAIL?

Conners said that Rome assimilated other cultures during his lecture. ASSIMILATED!?!?!? Could he have not picked a worse word!? Of ALL the words in the entire English language, he has to choose the one word that has the power (besides, of course, "pineapple") to send me into unstoppable peals of laughter. I WAS CRACKING UP LIKE AN IDIOT FOR ABOUT TWO FULL MINUTES. Right. Next. To. Darwin.

So not only am I a psycho-stalker, I also am a Trekkie in the WORST WAY POSSIBLE.


BUT! There was a shining ray of light in this awful day.

I came home. And my cats were happy to see me. :)


And for those curious:

( The Fudge Recipe )

Valentine's are DONE!

...now i just need to find some envelopes to mail them in XD Oh, and study for my astronomy test. Blech.

Today's been a good, productive day. I finally got deviantART to cooperate with my compy again, only to discover that they've completely fscked with the categories. It seems that somehow every single category I used for my photographs has vanished. Gross.

I'm sleepy....I'm going to try to go to be early tonight.

Annnnnd.....for your viewing pleasure:





Isn't she precious? Haha....and now I have "Life is Precious" stuck in my head. XD I miss choir tour sooooo much it's not even funny. I remember last year (my last year!) Ben and I hung out in the back of the bus chowing down on chocolate Teddy Grahams (they're vegan friendly!) and sleeping. Twelfth grade choir tour was just like eighth grade choir tour. It was just me and Ben. This year I was Hypochondriac Buddy and he was Green Buddy. We visited the stupid McDonald's in who-knows-where. On the last day, when we sang whatever the heck that song is called, we hugged each other, just like before. And I really miss him. I hate that he's in Austin. It feels so weird not seeing him. It's like ninth grade all over again, when I stopped having classes with him. It was such a shock. In eighth grade we had all our classes together--even P.E.! But suddenly in ninth grade, I hardly saw him. Now he's in Austin, living it up and loving it and I'm still here. But it's always been like that. He's always been one step ahead of. *insert more Ben-angst* I miss my stupid trash can religion starting, weird-noise making, super intelligent, amazingly caring, absolutely awesome hobbit guy! :'[ Gah....I love him.

But I don't love how he never comes home anymore. He's such a hippie loser like that. XD

But it was great that we got to stand by each other for "Nothing's too Good for my Friends." That was too perfect. That last choir tour performance was everything Pizazz! and graduation weren't. I miss PRAISE choir sooooo much. I really kind of sort of want to go back and just sing there forever. For. Eh. Ver. XD

Today's been.....interesting. I think I got a C on my Art History test, mainly because I forgot to study. I'm going to finish up the Valentine's TODAY, and they will all be sent off by tomorrow. If yours is late, let me know and I'll send you something for St. Patrick's day or something.....idk. I'll figure it out.

Fudge turned out amazing--so claims my brother and my taste buds. I had been worried that I had added either too much chocolate or too much salt or too little condensed milk but NO! 'Tis PERFECT.

It's gross and muggy right now but I feel pretty good despite. I saw a fire truck and an ambulance going down Crestline Road on my way out of the subdivision, so I'm thinking there was another fire somewhere in the neighborhood....I'm wondering if we have an arsonist or something though because that's the second one in less than a month. :\

Haha...I'm watching "Tuvix." It's the most awkward episode of ST:Voy EVER. I really hate it.....? Love it......? It's a love/hate relationship.


Okay....list for Valentine's is as follows, let me know if you want to be added if you're not already on there:

Audrey
Beth
Sarah
Darwin
Keri
Ben
Kim
Chaney
Mom

Mom is getting some carnations, Chaney is going to get....idk yet. Keri is going to get some underwear and some fudge or cookies (probably cookies because I bet my collection of stuffed animals she has some weird thing against fudge). Sarah's getting fudge and cat food. Beth is going to get a care package of surprise and wonderful things that will be sent AFTER her card. Darwin is getting fudge. Ben is getting....I'm not sure because vegan's are hard to shop for when you yourself like steaks and stuff. Audrey will get something crocheted that will be sent AFTER her card. Kim will get....something....not sure what, and it will also be sent AFTER her card.

And me? What am I getting? A PICNIC~ I'm considering the Houston loli picnic on the 16th to be my Valentine's Day gift.

OH AND MY CATS ARE GETTING SOME FANCY SCHMANCY CAT FOOD BECAUSE THEY ARE CUTE AND I LOVE THEM MORE THAN ANY OF YOU LOSERS.

Love Song
Sara Bareilles

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
You made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well,
but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

[Love Song lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'cause I believe there's a way you can love me
Because I say

I won't write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this

Is that why you wanted a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay

If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that
There's a reason to
Write you a love song today

From TIME magazine:

'For many of us, though, Valentine's Day only pretends to celebrate what we like about love while actually undermining it. True romance comes unscheduled, unruly, "a madness most discreet," quoth Romeo. Over time, as it ripens into devotion, still it improvises, a favor rendered, a sudden kiss, a private joke, flowers for no reason. Its expression is the very opposite of the fretful, "preorder now, or be left with drugstore chocolates" connivances that the day promotes. For those who feel well loved, everyday,, of course, is Valentine's. For the rest, no card can console...There's nothing wrong, of course, with delighting in love and honoring friendship and stopping in the bleak midwinter to tickle the people we love. But it's also a good sign of psychosocial health if the day just saunters by and winks, and you feel no need to pay attention. The minute it feels like a duty, it has lost its purpose. "Love sought is good," Shakespeare observed, "but given unsought is better."'

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I'm going to finish the Valentine's cards TONIGHT. Also a fudge test run is in the works as of ten minutes from now, as well as studying for my Art History test tomorrow that I do not want to take. Plus I've got to get my pics up on deviantart before I totally forget about them completely (it's still being ssllloooowwww...why won't it work???) and do other stuff that I don't want to think about. Plus, I started on some VD prose for the upcoming holiday. Haha...VD, venereal disease...omg I feel like I'm twelve again XD

Computer's being gross right now, so I'll get the other pics up tomorrow after work. They're all edited and everything, all I have to do is stick them on dA. I've got about five or six I think. I'm also going to get off my butt and get that Valentine's Day prose out. Somehow. Not totally sure. I can't really think about Valentine's Day, I'm in shock from all the stuff and BALLOONS at Party City right now. But I'll try to get it out, 'kay?

Speaking of Valentine's Day....Audrey, Kim, and Beth's cards are going to be most definitely late. I need to get ink for my printer before I can finish them up. Sorry. I'll try to send y'all a little something extra to make it worth the wait.

Here's the only pic from today that I've put up so far:



Bright Light Walking by ~en-miettes on deviantART

Isn't my baby cute? Actually my baby has thunder thighs, you just can't tell in this pic. XD And I didn't really want to do the dA embed thingy but I'm tired and my html skills are....not working. Doesn't seem as if much is right now.

Good night. I'm going to bed.

1. Buy black and color ink for printer
2. Buy cardstock
3. Find fudge recipe
4. Buy sweetened condensed milk
5. Buy chocolate chips
6. Do test run of fudge making
7. Buy Sophie, Beth, and Kim's gifts
8. dA Valentine's thingy
9. Practice fudge box origami
10. Figure out what kind of cat food Sarah-child wants
[EDIT]
11. Buy poster board

....more to come later (?)

Well guys....Valentine's Day is coming up. And boy do I know it. Working in a party store tends to heighten your awareness of each and every single holiday. Normally, as I love holidays, that is no problem. However this year, I have discovered I suffer from a well-known and well-cited ailment known as Valentine's Day Hating Sickness. I have no idea why, usually I go bonkers over it and all that jazz, but somehow this year is different.....

But I'm not here to piss and moan about how I'm sick of hearing about the "L" word and whatnot. I'm here to ask you all for your opinions.

Some of you may know that I have an account over at deviantART. If you didn't, now you do. There. Easy peas-y lemon squeeze-y. Now seeing as Valentine's Day is coming up, I'm thinking of doing some kind of Valentine's Day themed work to put up on our beloved internetz (lol....I am SO an English major XD). It's common-ish practice for members of dA to put junk up around the holidays/seasons but I've never done it and I kind of want to. Hre's where you come in.

I want you to tell me what to do. Mostly because I'm indecisive. Partly because I'd like some direction. So fill out this cute little poll thingamabob that I just made and tell me what you think/want.

( Click for poll thingamajig )

Okay now I am going to bed because I have class in seven hours. :[



x-posted to dA

So......I have no coffee. Yeah.....I'm not going to make it through class.

"Commander, set a new course. There's coffee in that nebula."

--Katherine Janeway

So, anyways....Valentine's Day is coming up (okay, not really...but that's what I get for working in a party store--a skewed version of the calender) and that means cute stuffed animals, Sweethearts, and......not much else this year. No, but seriously, I used to freak out over Valentine's Day, but this year I'm just really fed up with the holiday. And it's not because I work at a party store....every other holiday I liked I know LOVE. My mother says it's because I'm single....but that can't be true because I was single last year and I still went crazy. I don't know what this is......

So Valentine's will be relatively unremarkable this year. I'm going to give out those handmade Valentine's that I made last year. Now I just have to figure out what I did with that pattern......it was a pain to mock up. But if you live far away you will have to settle for a factory-manufactured one, as I'm not sure how well they'll hold up in the mail. If I don't have your address and you want one (it doesn't matter where you live!!! I'm willing to pay extra as long as you actually want one!) just e-mail it to me. lyricalfayethechibi AT gmail DOT com if you don't know. The lucky few getting the handmade Valentine's (provided I find the pattern in time) will be: Sarah, Trey, Mommy, Travis, and my cats. Such a changed repertoire from last year.

And now I'm going to finish this up real fast while I'm on break in my computer class. HERE is my FINAL schedule for the semester:

Monday/Wednesday
10:45 - 12:05: Concert Choir
1:00 - 2:20: Art History I

Tuesday/Thursday
8:05 - 10:20: Calculus I
10:30 - 11:45: Pop Choir
12:30 - 3:20: Planetary Astronomy

Friday
8:05 - 12:55: Intro to Computers

I seem to be using this title a lot today...

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I don't really have a date...it sucks, basically...

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Check out my dA account. I updated it.

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Look at this cute little kitty face I found in someone's dA siggy:

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Isn't it cute?? *squeal*

[EDIT:] Actually, the ears won't straighten out...they're kinda lop-sided...cries

[EDIT:] I fixed it...the cat kinda has a flat-ish head...