So...yeah. Truck people called. I took my baby over there to get the belts tightened. Found out all 3 need to be replaced and there's some leak they need to fix and more mumbo jumbo I don't understand. That alone is going to be at least $1,000.00 if not more. That means my window is not going to be fixed. Which means it is still not going to be able to close properly. Which means I'm going to be freezing my ass off.

And I can't do my Meta order with Sarah. Which I had been looking forward to since Meta first announced its Winter Collection. Which possibly also screws her over. But it screws me over. A lot. It was going to be my first purchase of NEW brand. All my brand came to me used.

No Ren Fest.

No Meta.

No ice skating at the Galleria.

No nothing for the rest of the year.

There just went all of my money for the next two or three months. I'm just...really upset. And I was already out because I sat on my lazy ASS and didn't get to 15k (which was actually completely feasible considering the pace I was at) so I'm out money for THAT. $6 for three friends...and a tank of gas for my mom. And gas is a shit load of money.

I'm so pissed off right now. No...not pissed off. Just really angry. It doesn't matter if people actually invite me anywhere anymore, I can't afford it. I mean, they didn't in the first place, but at least I had the cash to spend on myself. Now I have...empty pockets. Empty bank account. Empty savings account. Shit.

I have to pay for books. I have to pay for tuition. I have to pay for gas to get to work so I can buy these things.

I'm not getting any new leg warmers or arm warmers or socks. I can't even afford yarn to MAKE the damn things.

I'm just so upset right now. I had been working my ass off this semester, barely sleeping, not eating much...all so I could enjoy my winter break and go into the spring semester with a nice cushion of extra money. Not anymore. I'm probably not even going to be able to pick up the extra hours like I wanted because I just won't have the money.

Not only that...but I also can't buy shit for people now. Chaney's not getting anything. Grandma's not getting anything. What really eats me is that I was going to take Mom to a nice restaurant. I was going to get her something really amazing. I didn't know what--I just wanted to make up for the 18 years of work she put into me. Now I'm getting her a cheap card.

Bull shit.

I'm sorry...but that's just BULL SHIT.

All that work...so I could finally have money for once in my life. So I could have enough to buy my first new brand. So I could finally have enough to do nice things for my mom. Gone. Why did I even bother having 2 jobs in the first place? All of that money...gone. All of that time could have been spent on my ass watching Star Trek. Which is what I'll be doing for the next three months. I don't even know if I'll have the money to go to Matsuri anymore because there went my money cushion.

Bull shit.