So Unsexy
Alanis Morissette

Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could

Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind

Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated

When will you stop leaving baby?
When will I stop deserting baby?
When will I start staying with myself?

Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me

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It's eighth grade all over again. What is it with the end of the year, the end of a stage in our lives, that makes people just...not include me. And don't give me the bull about how y'all love me and all of this is unintentional. Maybe the first or second or third times were mistakes but, geez....isn't there some quote somewhere about being hit once shame on you, being hit twice shame on you, being hit thrice shame on me, or something like that? I'm not stupid. If you don't want to hang out with me, you can just come up to me and say, "Hey, Megan. We don't like you anymore, fuck off"...I'll get it. You don't need to do this thing where you don't call me up and then I find out about the fun later...after the fact. It's basically ruined graduation for me. But don't worry--I'm fucking used to this by now. I'll find some more friends (like I've done before) who will just ditch me again in a few years. Just don't give me shit about well, why didn't you/aren't you crying?? It's because I get nothing from you. I am so fucking sick of this. So, spread the word, if you honestly don't like me or if you just "forget" about me constantly, don't bother coming today to my house. I'm at the point where I really just want to know who my real friends are. So fuck off.