Ugh. So I feel lame. Even though I should be happy right now. D:

I went on a date (??) with Mark. And there were a lot of awkward pauses throughout the day. A LOT of VERY AWKWARD pauses. And all I could think was, 'Oh god....why can't I be more interesting? WHAT is wrong with me?!' I mean, I seriously have not had so much trouble talking to a guy since....before I dated Geoff. I felt so uninteresting.

But he was....stunning. Funny and nice and involved. And I was just....awkward. He says I wasn't and that I was interesting, but I'm not so sure. Maybe I should carry note cards with things to talk about on them? (just kidding)

We went to see Iron Man and then got some coffee from Starbucks and then went to wander around Willowbrook Mall. It was really fun. And he was really sweet. And his eyes....wow. I love a guy with eyes like that.

And....I feel more level-headed than I have in a long time. As good as it feels to get caught up i emotions and lost in one's feelings (like when I was with Geoff), it feels just as nice to have something....stable? ^_^;;; I'm talking about this as if it's a long-term relationship that has been going on for a long while! I don't mean it like that. I just feel like this (whatever it is going to be) will be stable, and it feels nice.

We talked about our friends, and Ben came up several times. I'm sad, because he seems to be right at home in Austin and unwilling to come home, but I'm happy he's found his niche. He'll be home for a few days, and I'm looking forward to catching up with him. I miss him.

And Beth needs to come home right now!!! :3

All in all, I had fun today. I'm hoping we'll get to do something on Friday after we sing at Graduation. :)