So I was riding home with a friend today and I just happened to glance out of my window and catch my reflection in his side view mirror and realized something. He was the first guy that I really actually felt comfortable after He Who Must Not be Named made me cry and said all kinds of shit about me. Looking in that mirror, I realized I was happy and felt safe with him...

I dunno....just general weirdness going on on my part right now when concerning guys. I've basically given up on them. I'm sick of waiting around and playing the whole "Do you like me, I like you, why don't you like me" game. I'll just buy my own ticket and corsage for prom, take myself to the movies, and buy myself cute-sy gifts and stuff because I'm sick of being on pins and needles all the time and allowing some other (completely brainless) organism to have control over my emotions. I can be happy just being friends with that last guy I tried wasting my time on. So, thanks to the "tone-deaf bastard for (indirectly) helping me to realize it. You always seem to be able to sort out the madness in my head and heart.

xXx

I'm just...I dunno...BLAH.