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It is 7:20 am. I need to leave in twenty minutes. I am still sitting on my ass on the couch with a bowl of cereal on my stomach. I feel so drained right now, idk if I can take geology. I don't know if I can be totally present. But we're having another quiz on the geologic time scale and I'm already so lost in that class I can't afford to skip.
(and now here's where I get ramble-y)
When I was about 13 I could pick up the phone and ask someone who knew me, knew me probably better than I know myself, if he thought I was a bad person. And he would always say no. I could ask him if I were a bitch. And he would always say no. But now I think that maybe he was just saying that to shut me up. Becca says I'm good and kind and give more love than she ever knew was possible. But I think she only says that because I feed her.
Costume-wearing starts Friday at work. I need to find the belt to my taxi driver costume and I need to get one more since I work all weekend and that's three days. I only have two costumes right now. I know some people don't like Halloween because they don't understand how anyone could want to be someone else. But right now, I'm really looking forward to being able to escape into that.
(and now here's where I get ramble-y)
When I was about 13 I could pick up the phone and ask someone who knew me, knew me probably better than I know myself, if he thought I was a bad person. And he would always say no. I could ask him if I were a bitch. And he would always say no. But now I think that maybe he was just saying that to shut me up. Becca says I'm good and kind and give more love than she ever knew was possible. But I think she only says that because I feed her.
Costume-wearing starts Friday at work. I need to find the belt to my taxi driver costume and I need to get one more since I work all weekend and that's three days. I only have two costumes right now. I know some people don't like Halloween because they don't understand how anyone could want to be someone else. But right now, I'm really looking forward to being able to escape into that.